I had a couple of ideas of what I was going to write about tonight but…something came up. So there’s this instead. I’ll save the others for some other time.
Some folk are aware that I have been going through a divorce over the past year. Today, I checked the court status and found that the case has been decided. The court has accepted our mediated settlement. The divorce is final.
I am…of very mixed feelings about this. No, I don’t really miss anything from the marriage. That was…what it was. I am, however, very wistful about what might have been. One factor is that I was raised Latter Day Saint. I’m not a believer any more, haven’t been for a good number of years now, but some of the early conditioning remains. One part of that was that I was raised with the idea that marriage is forever, not just “until death do you part” but forever “For time and all eternity.” That didn’t happen and, so, a significant part of me sees that as a failure on my part.
But…it takes two.
So, as I said, very mixed feelings. Really mixed. All over the place mixed.
So let’s let some music express some of those feelings. Like I said, they’re all over the place.
But, in the end, I suppose we have to let go and move on.
“There’s more to live than just you. I may cry but I’ll make it through. And I know that the sun will shine again, though I may think of you now and then.”